The questions of 'What If's, Aziraphale's an expert on those. But only in asking, rarely in answering, unless it keeps him from action. But it's true, he probably would have made exactly the same suggestion, if not entirely come up with a way of leaving without giving the demon a chance to stop him.
And it would have hurt. And he would have been so, so alone.
Part of him fears that's exactly what Crowley will do. That's what terrifies him, that they might think the same, do the same, forcing themselves into drastic acts of heroism to save the other. Because, he knows.
He knows.
His face, now softened, just looks somewhere between guilty and concerned. He brings his free hand to rest it on top of both of theirs, holding close, like making a promise.
He shakes his head, but keeps his gaze.
"I won't--" And he falters only for a second, afraid, not of making a promise, but of failing it.
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Date: 2019-08-23 11:26 pm (UTC)And it would have hurt. And he would have been so, so alone.
Part of him fears that's exactly what Crowley will do. That's what terrifies him, that they might think the same, do the same, forcing themselves into drastic acts of heroism to save the other. Because, he knows.
He knows.
His face, now softened, just looks somewhere between guilty and concerned. He brings his free hand to rest it on top of both of theirs, holding close, like making a promise.
He shakes his head, but keeps his gaze.
"I won't--" And he falters only for a second, afraid, not of making a promise, but of failing it.
"I won't leave you."